Listen to this and you'll catch my drift:
I'd like to sincerely apologize to everyone I know for the past 7 months, when I haven't exactly played the part of myself.
Anxiously aware of that I might have gone and fucked things up for good. Thing is, though, that I couldn't have done it any other way. Because it's who I am. Truly who I am. For the first time since Easter. And I need to forgive myself for it.
Well. That's it. For real this time. I'm ashamed, I'm upset, I'm amused, I'm... such an idiot. [Such a cliché.] And I have learned my lesson. Trust me.